I laughed a bit about you setting in your truck..No offense.. I drove to my closest meeting 4 times before going in. Being court ordered, I only had three choices: Go in, sign my own slip or go to jail.. I went in and it was a HARD door to walk through,but once there I was welcomed. I still go today and my court stuff ended in Feb. I'm not an avid AA'er,but we don't bite and are just like you in more ways than you know. You'll hear it when you do go in. F2F meetings have helped me a lot! It's only an hour(you can leave whenever you want) and you don't have to say a word.