Mint
I am sure it hurts. I can imagine - been there and pretty much done that too. At least you have a definite answer of whether there is hope or not. There isn't - he has obviously moved on. So now you can start brand new on your own life. Cry, rage, write it out. And then start writing up a plan of how you, on your own are going to create a life you can deal with and enjoy. I'm at ground zero right now too.... all I can do is do the things I have to do, do whatever it is to help me get by (that is NOT drinking but seems to include a lot of eating right now) and to get through the next minute, hour, day until I can get myself to better place and then to the next better place for me. I have a lot of work to do for a lot of years of drinking. I'm not adding any more days and years to that amount. It's hard to lose someone but I think you do realize it's done and over with and drinking is keeping you in a bad spot longer than you have to be.