Hey guys, thanks. Honestly I'm not sure how much of it has to do with courage, maybe some of it, but for me it's more the desire to not feel like crap anymore. I didn't want to try any meetings because I felt like that made it "official" if that makes sense. Yesterday I decided I need to get over myself. Because as much as calling myself an alcoholic makes me cringe right now, at the very least I can't deny there's a problem. And if I know it, isn't it already pretty official? What do I have to lose by trying something new to help myself? That's my line of thinking anyway.