Sounds like a good plan for today Wantingit. We've all used something as an excuse to keep drinking, I know I did it for years. Loneliness, boredom, excitment, sadness, work problems, family problems, you name it. It's not pathetic, it's just the nature of addiction. The great thing is that you can make the choice to change your actions and not listen to it anymore - I think getting back to a meeting today and staying in touch with your sponsor is a great idea. Be honest too - not only with yourself but those around you.