Originally Posted by
Wantingit 
. Everyday I say I’m not going to drink yet everyday I do.....stuck in a bad rut
I did this every single day for 27 years.
I would even be driving home from work, telling myself I would go straight home without stopping to buy booze and I would still always stop. I feared living without alcohol.
402 days ago the alcohol just wasn't working anymore and I was in a constant state of panic, anxiety, dread and depression - no matter how much I drank. I was at a fork in the road - drink 24/7 until I died or get help.
You will know when you are ready to change.