I am so sorry, you sound understandably upset. I can also understand turning to the bottle, a definite trigger! However at some point you just have to pick yourself back up and get on with things or what is the alternative? We all know here that drinking will not help - it won't help you deal with anything & will probably make you feel worse.
It must be so hard though. You need to do what you can to take care of yourself & find some inner strength to keep going & find that light at the end of the tunnel.
Take care x