So Close to Losing It All
I hit ‘rock bottom’ last week, and came clean to my hubby about all the coke, sex, and booze.The truth hurts so much, hurts me, him, our life, our plans, he also loves, and wants to help. I don’t understand why. I went to an AA meeting Monday, and then today I had a shot, a line of coke, and followed through on plans to have sex with a stranger I met on a dating site. I’m disgusted. I am so ashamed! I am mortified. What is the matter with me. I feel like the most depraved disgusting human alive. I can’t tell him again what I’ve done. This is worse than what I thought rock bottom was last week.