Hi Mera. I don't honestly know what I could have done differently. There's only a few Aa meetings near me and they're at night. As dor rehab I rang but cannot afford it with my three loans to pay. I saw a psychologist a year ago and joined a social group and practice deep breathing and mindfulness which he taught me. I don't really have a hobby which is the only thing I haven't done. I don't know what the answer is except don't drink and do more meetings. I convinced myself the cask would last a week. Really stupid. At least it was small. Thanks so much for trying to he lp me.