Depression is like an old friend to me too Pelagic. I can often see the signs but when things in my life start getting chaotic and/or out of control it can falsely seem comforting. The darkness feels familiar and alcohol usually isn’t too far behind. Such lies though. What I am trying to escape quickly becomes the new normal and the depression deepens. Followed quickly by sadness, desperation and hopelessness. Thank you for sharing so honestly. This is day four for me and I was so embarrassed to be starting back at the beginning. Realizing a little more every day though that it’s not a failure it’s a learning opportunity. All about what we do with what we learn. Love you. We are in this together.