Goth - self love was one of the pillars that saw me three years sober. We have to be our own advocates, and loving ourselves is the constant undercurrent to that, always. Getting sober for oneself is part of that, too.
You are worthy of love and the sympathies expressed to others on Fbook are half-hearted - not real love, and certainly not the depth and quality that you deserve.
I think it should always been congratulated when you peg that AV awakening and try to wreak havoc, so well done there.
Commit. No matter the temptation outsmart it. Now and after baby comes. Whether in your belly or finally out in the world, they will never stop needing.
