Feeling sorry for myself today
Of all days, I am so sad today, which is not my normal holiday mood. I will be surrounded by family today, so I have much to be thankful for, but I'm so sad. Between AH doing an exceptional amount of quacking last night, me being very sleep deprived - which means I'm having a hard time ignoring the quacks, and the normal stress of getting everything ready - meal and house - for everyone to arrive this afternoon, I am really struggling putting one foot in front of the other today. I'm scared my family will see right through me, or worse that I'll just break down in tears. I'm also realizing that something is going to have to change very soon. AH very subtly went after one of the kids with his alcoholic passive aggressiveness last night, and that is a boundary I have set. It's been one thing for him to pull that stuff with me, I signed up for this. They did not. Too much going on today to figure out exactly how I'm going to address it. Thanks for letting me vent.