Sinderos, I hope you come back.
I'm pretty new to this site, and I actually think it can take a while to get used to it. I see the regulars that post & they have different personalities. Initially I found some quite harsh but now I know that is their way. Everyone really is trying to help.
I think it depends on you too. Tough love clearly isn't working right now but there might be a time when you need it, it is hard to tell.
You absolutely did well to stop at just 2 drinks, It could have been so much worse! Just keep going, keep trying.
Take care.