My AH is addicted to cocaine. He says he doesn't have a problem, because he only does it every 3 weeks, yet he owes the government for 10 years of unpaid taxes, his credit is ruined, he stole money from me, stole jewelry from his parents, he pawned his wedding ring, etc...
Cocaine really changes people and it was very hard for me to accept that. I really hoped and believed him when he said he doesn't have a problem. I also felt I was blowing things out of proportion and making things bigger than they are, but things have gotten worse and worse and the biggest decision I had to make was to look at myself in the mirror and accept the cold reality.
Things will get better. We feed on energy from those around us and addicts suck everything healthy out of our soul. It will take some time to recharge, but things will get better. Work on yourself.