Hi LB
I am very sorry for your situation.
Just so you know you are far from being alone. Your story while unique to you & very sad has a lot of common elements as does every story on this forum. My story is posted on this forum. Its about my relationship with an active addict. There are most definately common elements shared with your story.
My seperation from her happened back in June of this year. It was done by my choice not hers. I understand how you feel. I am still going through it all now. I am better now than what I was back in June. Time does help.
Please try to keep the reality of it all at the forefront of your thoughts. Fantasy thinking concerning a relationship with someone in active addiction leads to problems. You have to focus hard on the reality. Additction is progressive & addiction is exttremely desctructive. You, like me, have been touched by addiction.
There is a great deal of support on this forum. Support from caring & knowledgeable people. Peole who have experienced a life with an addict.
Please take care of yourself.