Originally Posted by
Redmayne 
So in any relationships at whatever level, personal or professional it's often a good thing to pause, reflect and move on bearing in mind that whatever the circumstances sobriety comes first for without that . Metaphorically speaking 'rain or sunshine' nothing else matters...without it 'there's no me' which includes what I can offer both to others and myself....
I think I learned a lot of good lessons with this experience. 1. I can’t show up for anything or anyone unless I put my sobriety first. And 2. This was the first time I was my authentic self with someone, and I was still accepted. I can be loved. I didn’t think that would ever be the case.
I’m still sad, but feeling a glimmer of hope now.