Isn't there anyone who has succeeded with moderation and occasional use ?
I doubt you'll find many yea's in this forum.
All I know is I tried for 30 years to find a way to smoke it and not have it run my life. I never found that way.
I'm sorry Teo but you sound like that kind of smoker to me.
Whatever benefits you feel you're getting from it, I'm betting the negatives are as much, if not more by now.
That doesn't get better the longer you smoke IMO. it gets worse.
In the end I couldn't even get high - I just turned catatonic.
I always thought not smoking would leave my life that little bit empty but it really hasn't been that way.
I'm really glad I've had a decade off the stuff.
I don't think I would have done any of the cool things I have had I been smoking.
I hope you'll give yourself the chance to give it a go - a real go - Teo.
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