Originally Posted by
Redmayne 
'You wait a lifetime to meet Someone
who understands you, accepts you as you are.
At the end, you find that Someone, all along has been you.'
Richard Bach ' 'Reminders for the Advanced Soul'
for those who suffer from alcoholism you do a lot of this sort of thing...
Thank you for both of your replies! You're right. I need to think before I think. My best thinking is not so great, haha.
And I need to love myself. I so quickly made him my higher power, which tells me that I'm not there yet in terms of loving myself. Also the self-hatred I feel because I know my self-will made a total mess of things.
Sigh. I'm just so impatient. I want everything to be better immediately. I feel like, "hey everyone! I've almost got a year! So now I can date and fall in love, and buy a house, a car, and life will be great! Right???"