Originally Posted by
tealily 
It is the trickiest part. It's such a mind game.
I tried quitting for years and it didn't work. Until I finally accepted and BELIEVED that:
my life was better without alcohol
I would be healthier without alcohol
I'd sleep better without alcohol
I'd feel less shame about my behavior if I didn't drink, ever
I'd wake up feeling energized and proud, instead of sick and miserable
Before, it was so easy to talk myself into that "one glass" which always became at least a whole bottle of wine. That it "wasn't so bad". Well, it was indeed "SO BAD".
Once I truly realized that and accepted .. plus the realization after trying for years unsuccessfully to moderate that trying to do it part way would never work .. that MY LIFE would be so much better with NO ALCOHOL at all, that I turned the corner.
Now, it seems so much easier. If you put on the scales all you will receive from NOT DRINKING vs what your life is like WITH DRINKING ... It's an easy equation.
That's it exactly Tealilly. I've got two options - sober or drunk. There is no middle ground but yet I keep trying to find it. I need to accept that this is the reality and choose a life where I actually feel good and feel good about myself too. I appreciate your post, thanks.