Turmoil has always characterised my binges - mainly internal but, often enough, external too. I have, at times, seen that turmoil as 'creative' because it is a vivid, florid experience, both in terms of thoughts and feelings. It also leads to the kind of life events and circumstances that can make for a pretty good song - especially if you like blues and country! But, calling it 'creative' was a just a sort of rationalization, a cover story. Nothing ever came out of it except intentions - at least nothing I can still remember!
When I go through a period of sobriety I remember what creativity is really all about. But it takes a while. In the days after a binge, my spirits are low and my motor functions are not the best. It takes a week or two and then something usually starts to stir. Then one day I will pick up an instrument and play a bit and think 'wow, this is what I used to sound like!' (in a good way!) But, for me, at least, that usually takes a week or even two of being sober.
......I wonder what a year of being sober could produce? Or a lifetime?