Day 11
I finally told my son today. I've been very reluctant. Guess I was afraid of stumbling and looking more like a failure. He said he was thrilled and very proud of me. I have to keep it that way!
Went to a Mexican restaurant last night and as soon as we walked in I saw it...........my fave drink to have when eating out........a margarita. Oh my how I wanted one!! (and to be honest I'm still thinking about it) For some reason I've thought more about drinking today than any other day.
BUT I didn't and I'm not going to.
I'm having Thanksgiving with non-drinkers - thank goodness! But next week will be the weekly neighborhood dinner. I've made excuses for not going the last two weeks. There are about six or so of us who get together for potluck once a week. These are people I also go to church with. They're fantastic people who I know really care about me. I know I probably haven't fooled anyone...especially after the last time I ate there and had to be "helped" home. It was very embarrassing.
Anyway, everyone has a small glass of wine or two. (of course I've already had a few to several before going). I'm feeling that I'm probably not ready to be in a situation where everyone is having a drink. Afraid it might be way too easy to have just that tiny glass of wine like everyone else is having.
So should I be honest and tell them why I don't feel that I can attend the dinners for awhile?
When life gets too hard to stand.............kneel.