Originally Posted by
gazelle 
I have been preparing for this day. I have the week off, the house is set up so I don't have to leave, I've confided in a couple friends, and I guess it's time I get some sleep. WIsh me luck. This is something I really want. I'm killing myself... It will kill me.
This is good, Gazelle. All our strength and experience and hope are at your disposal, Gazelle. Post and read and please...stay honest with your friends, don't skimp on getting real life support.
Sobriety is in your reach, and in sobriety, one thing after another gets better and better. I made heavy use of SR and included my partner and my two closest friends in my “trusted” circle. It has been rough staying honest with them, and it was not without risk. But i had to.