Originally Posted by
tomsteve 
although the drinking dreams were more vivid and i remembered them better than other dreams( i still remember some of them from 12 years ago), i had to work at not reading too much into them. i really dont have control over what my dreams were, but DID have control over whether those dreams became reality or not
crazy thing about those drinking dreams for me:
in every single one, i knew i blew my sobriety.
now that i havent had one in some time and the subject came up, i will probably have one soon.
That's really interesting Tomsteve, I'm the same. I'm either drinking then realise it's alcohol and that I've blown it or I say f*** it and just drink. Last night it was Christmas and I decided to drink because my aunt was coming, and she hates it when I'm sober. She then cancelled but I had already had three beers. No psychoanalysis needed there!!! Changing relationships is the main thing I struggle with though, more than anything else. Feels very threatening to me.
I think I just answered my own question!!