Goth, I understand how you need a device for projects. I only use good old fashioned writing for my journaling--so therapeutic.
If a sponsee says her writing is awful and wants to typing to be her mainstay (for step homework), I share with her the benefits of getting it out on paper--the messier, the better! Even if she tears the paper; good, I say.
Continue to take good care of yourself--You are worth it!