Just logged in - thank you for all of the helpful comments. YES. He is still selfish. YES I need to rebuild a happy, healthy life for myself. YES I need to redefine what that looks like. Sorry - didn't mean to insinuate that my kids aren't speaking to me. We're close BUT agree with Dandy that staying is not the best for the kids and they pick up on the stress/feel the chaos.
I was thinking of you COD and how your son always calls for you if he needs someone in the middle of the night. So sad that your son realizes his mom cannot be counted on at night
