I cannot echo the comments above enough - especially Scott's.
I was so- SO- angry when I quit.
I also quit because I finally- after years of horrifying damage to pretty much everything in my life- chose LIFE. I was told, at 39, that I had a year, 18 mo to live if I didn't quit.
I cannot tell you in enough detail how eternally grateful I am that I made that choice.
Bottom line: alcohol KILLS people like us. Period, end of story, full stop.
And like others have said here- and all over SR - I decided that while I will certainly die one day- it will NOT be because of continued drinking.
I hope you make the leap - it was terrifying for me to imagine life without alcohol but deep down I knew I needed to quit and committing to a life in recovery has proven "worth it" and the opposite of sad in Every. Single. Way.