No one really wants to be an alcoholic
Noone wants to have to go to AA, or to work hard at not doing something, or go through life being different.
But honestly - I think my drinking life was far far worse.
You are in good company sweetichick.
Many times I confused abstinence for control, but they're not the same thing.
No matter how much sober time I have, I know what will happen when I drink again.
When you accept that, everything really starts to change, for the better
Do you think you're closer to accepting it now Sweetichick?
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