and I thought we would be a family and get married etc...... I'm 31 and he's 34
so I have been with my boyfriend for 3.5 years, we don't live together (he likes his own space)
Doesn’t sound like marriage material from the get go.
Working through those feelings of obligation and guilt can be hard but staying with someone because of those feelings is even harder.
How about you try a weekend of NOT rescuing and keep yourself busy doing something fun instead.