Thank you every for your kind messages/support, I think what breaks my heart the most is his Nan brought him up, she's 81 and she's just lost her dog of 14 years and he keeps putting her through it and I think in someway she relies on me to "save" him on a weekend so he will stop and as much as I love his nan to bits I don't think that's enough for me to stay because like you say, I'm not his career and he's responsible for his own actions, I just never thought it would get to this stage (naïve) and I thought we would be a family and get married etc...... I'm 31 and he's 34
