Iamme31 - I love your sense of humor in these dark hours. Lol - your poor dog. It will get you far.
Firstly, you’re not alone. I too drank in “silence” for a long time. Always vodka because you can’t “smell it” right? That was until my body became saturated with it as I needed more and more. Then there was no hiding it just from the alcohol smell. Initially it made me happy, more outgoing, more fun to be around, care free yada, yada, yada.
You’re smart to ask for help. If you feel you can’t detox safely on your own go to the ER. They can’t force you to do anything, but they can ease the side effects. Good luck and stay close to SR, it’s a lifesaver.