I just got to the stage where:
1) I hated the person I had become so much that I didn't see how I could carry on.
2) I had lost all my integrity
3) I finally realised that I COULD NOT modify my drinking and that the only way to stop the cycle I was stuck in was to stop drinking.
4) Once I finally stopped, I realised that it was my only strategy and I'd need to learn how to do this living sober malarky, along with all the other alcoholics in recovery.
We stop digging when we find our own rock bottom. Our rock bottoms may well be different, but the journey to sober living has similarities for all of us.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery.
BB