Originally Posted by
SoulfulThinker 
There is most definitely hope for you, you are still breathing, want sobriety, and admitting that you can't do it alone.
I've heard so many stories of people hitting rock bottom and taking quite some time to actually make the commitment to get clean, so don't beat yourself up on that you're not alone. No one can do anything for you, but yourself.
Coming to this site is a great step, and so is honestly opening up about your story. Have you tired NA/AA? It was scary for me being a newcomer, but people are generally welcoming. It's really nice to be around people who get it. It's a supportive environment- you don't have to work the steps or get a sponsor or anything like that unless/until you want to.
I felt that there was one word missing from the end of the last sentence: recover.
Nearly every post along these lines mentions meetings but never the steps. That might be a clue as to why success is so elusive.