Glad you joined us, soberexpat. This is a great place to get and give support to other people who get it.
I'm taking disulfiram/antabuse and it is a helpful recovery device for my broken brain. I've never heard of this in the US; think I need to do some research! (Part of my Excellence in Procrastination mode.) The daily in-person interactions I have with other addicts is another amazing tool. Having made a decision to be as open and honest as I can be, I'm finding this work to be extremely difficult. And that's ok. Drinking was hard too. I'd rather have discomfort on the way to being healthy than on the way to being dead.
I'm very interested in how you get on - do continue sharing!
O