Hi Atkins-
Thanks for having the courage to post. You already took your first step towards recovery by posting your routine with the drinking. I'm only on my 8th sober day, but I read a lot of posts from people here who's been sober for a while. I just made sure to read their process and support everyday, and has worked thus far. And like lot of the above responses, you can see they tried everything (tapering, reduction, etc). Bottom line, you don't need to drink..PERIOD! Not easy, but people here will get you through it..whether you're up or down, everyone on SR will be here for you without judgement.