Hi LastDrop - Reading your post is word for word how I would explain my situation so maybe good to keep in touch!
Exactly the same as you've wrote so I did the same, I can't take anymore of this in denial existing and being so lost instead of sorting it out, getting fully sober and LIVING!
I'm on day 6 today, feel pretty rough physically but I know this will pass and I feel really positive about the future.
I only found this site 3 days ago and it's really been a lifeline, the support is amazing.
Anyway wish you the best and here to talk / compare notes at anytime
