Originally Posted by
Sohard 
I literally don't know how anyone wins this battle. I don't think I can. And that attitude, I know, is 1/2 the problem. It's just SO DAMN HARD.
Everyone on Sober Recovery who has any extended sober time has gone through the same battle you are. Faced the same overwhelming compulsion to drink, dealt with the same doubts. And remained sober.
So can you.