Originally Posted by
biminiblue 
It is hard.
I knew when I was done, but the lead-up to that was painful and full of circular thinking just like you are doing.
Honor your "process." You'll get there. It may be a big blow-up, but it may just be a quiet voice one day.
It's miserable in the limbo, though.
It really is miserable to be in limbo! I stay because I have hope. I can financially do it on my own, emotionally I can do it on my own. I have huge support with family & friends but I struggle with giving up on my marriage & giving up on him but I also do not believe this is how God designed marriage. I am trying to be O.k with where I am but that too is a struggle! Thanks for your kind words!