Sweetichick,
I am sorry...I am not at all saying that your problems are imaginary. I know that you are estranged from your children. I had forgotten the neighbor and ex were one-and-the-same. And sometimes I am the only one who gets my analogies.
I am only observing this...if you finally decided to not let these things distract you, then you could turn and embrace real recovery.
You deserve to feel better, and I hope very much that you will, as Dee suggested, go see your doctor. My wish for you is that you will someday truly believe you deserve to be happy and will do what it takes to get well.
