Mish

I don't know D. It all happened so quickly and I was like..I got this it's not going to be like all the other times. I did reach out to my dear friend Nic233 on SR but that was after I started drinking again. I tried at the beginning of the week to get an appointment at the doctors but they couldn't fit me in til next Tuesday. We only have one doctor in the town I live in. I just don't know what to do. I popped into SR to see what you guys were up to but was too ashamed to post. Every time I get a few months under my belt this happens and I go back to square 1. Looking at the next three months now makes me think whats the point of even trying if I keep falling off the wagon at that point. But I know there's no other way. I just have to keep trying. I just want to cry :-(