Originally Posted by
Stayingsassy 
Weight gain causes my relapses .
This caught my eye, and got me thinking - maybe you cause them yourself, by focusing too much on your weight and using that as an justification?
I had similar issues early on, I was eating normally for the first time in years, and I was too wiped out to exercise, so I gradually put on 25 pounds or so. I had to make deliberate mental decision that I was not going to care - I can work on the weight later, but I will not let considerations like that influence my commitment to not drink alcohol. Worked for me, I stayed sober and eventually took off most of the extra pounds, but it meant I was going to have to buy some new pants to wear for a while, and I'd just have to persevere knowing it was a temporary situation.