Hi Prosper,
Like you, this is the first time I've ever tried to stop drinking. I found this site a month ago and have 30 days sober now. It became apparent to me as I progressed over that month that I am here with people just like me. So many SR stories could have been my story. And if these wonderful people are just like me, and they already know they can't moderate, then maybe I can't either.
I started with the idea that I was taking a 'break', indeed that's still what I'm telling my friends if they ask. But now I know that it has to be a lifelong break. I found great support in the Class of September - I'd advise joining the new class of October to meet a bunch of people going through, day by day, the same thing you are.
You can do it!