Moderation doesn't work for alcoholics. If it worked, if we could moderate, none of us would be here. I think most members have tried moderation and failed. I found it emotionally exhausting.
Abstinence is far easier for alcoholics. You take the option of ever drinking again off the table and life becomes simpler. You fid better and healthier ways to deal with stress and the ups and downs of life.
My suggestion would be to stop drinking right now, today. There is always a reason to put it off.