Welcome to SR, Archie. I'm glad you found us here. Drinking was part of my daily life as well (I'm a chef) so it was scary to imagine a life without it. But I too got tired of the lost time, the black outs, the shame of idiotic things done while drunk, etc. Probably moderation is not going to work. At least it didn't work for me.
The good news is that sobriety will be a lot better than you think it.
Again, good to have you with us, Archie.