Keeping busy helped..
Similarly I most often would fit drinking in around my life, not drinking when I worked early and really drinking hard during spare time. Basically I did what I had to do and then my down time was alcohol. I even studied for years successfully, always putting time aside to complete assignments and meet deadlines. I don't therefore think I have ever disliked spending time on my own or disliked my own company, I used to sit for hours calmly and happily painting. It is just that I have had a really disfunctional way of rewarding myself... At times locked in to consuming increasing amounts of alcohol when free... Binging etc.. I have been sober for 6 days enjoying myself, putting in the work and wondering why I have treated myself so poorly... I have also been keeping busy beginning a language course and responding therefore to my needs to live in different ways... God knows how much I would have drunk over those 6 days, but, it scares me....