Hi, I'm here. Having a hard time these days.
I quit my group therapy. I felt I couldn't be honest. I've been betrayed by people relating what I've shared in meetings, so now I don't want to share. Which doesn't go over well in group therapy. I also don't trust my counselor because of my career. Though I'm not currently working.
I have PTSD from my ex. And from other things. But am not willing to be put in an expensive monitoring program with my career for having multiple diagnoses. It is like an entirely separate court system in my state even if you are not in trouble with the law, which I am not. My record is clean.
My counseling is voluntary. I just don't see the point in going if I can't completely open up to people.
I'm ok with going to AA or Smart Recovery and simply not sharing.
All of this and the betrayal and the damage caused by my ex has made me so paranoid though. I'm very scared to tell what's going on with me, but I am struggling.
I have support from my parents.
Thanks for listening and for always, always being here.