HUGS
Just hugs. You have been through so much.
I don't know what else to tell you.
I am the alcoholic in my relationship (almost 3 years sober) and all I know is the empathy I now feel for the partners we have that we put through so much.
I am in agreement with previous posters. I am glad that for now he is your ex partner. You sound so lovely, with so much to offer. Using that energy to help someone like me or him, I don't know. Is that what you are up for? It's a long struggle and you can't do it on your own.
But you - you sound magnificent. You sound like someone who deserves a full and total partner that can be everything for you.
I am so sorry for your experience.
Often when I am answering in this forum I feel I am apologizing for other alcoholics - but I can't do that. All I can say is that I know what he is doing - and I know for a fact that you are so much better off far away from it than being close to it. I know it hurts. We are all here to listen and to help.
Peace and hugs to you, and I am wishing prayers of healing to your ex partner.