Jess, for me the whisper is still a whisper, but I'm less and less able to ignore it...
To me, that's how the Higher Power speaks--in whispers. It says what it needs to say, and it steps back and allows me to choose whether to act on the information or not. Whatever choice I make, the consequences are mine either way.
My disease, on the other hand, is the thing that screams, yells, coaxes, cajoles, coerces, makes deals, says "C'mon, it'll be ok. Don't worry about it. We'll clean it up later!"
This is the "voice" I have learned to say no to.
I used to share at meetings that, since I've been in Al-Anon, I've grown a conscience. Then, someone said to me, "You always had a conscience. You just never
listened to it..."
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...