Thank you.
I KNOW I am not perfect. There's plenty of character defects alive and strong in me, and he'd of course write a different story.
But I don't need him to be perfect. I just need to be an equal - two flawed adults trying their best to sort out a situation that affected us both, and was mainly created by my drinking, which is my responsibility.
Instead, he wants some hungover and contrite victim to control.
I KNOW part of my drinking was about trying to make my marriage tolerable to me - the loneliness of it. I'm sad that I made that decision because it damaged me and the people around me. But I am not making that decision now and the marriage is still intolerable.
I hope he leaves today. We'll see.