Originally Posted by
dwtbd 
Zen
I'd say a lot of what you describe is AV.
Does the presence of your AV weaken your BP?
I have a real firm No Matter What clause , you ?
The presence of my AV doesn't change my BP in any way.
And it's not like I'm sitting around moping or anything. I'd be lying though if I said that there haven't been times where I felt a loss, but I don't think that's abnormal. I liked it so much that I did it until I had lost my power of choice and it was a huge deal to work up to being able to reassert myself and take back my control. Like I said though, it's only if I let my mind dwell on it. Most of the time I don't allow myself to.