And this is why I love you guys. I'm beating myself up for even wavering but I need to relax and understand that it's okay to have those thoughts. It's hard to know I'm hurting someone else, but I need to learn that it's not okay that I'm being hurt.
It's scaring me that I'm having doubts and I'm so afraid that I'm going to take the easy way out again and nothing changes. It's messed up that the easy way out is staying, isn't it? There's nothing easy about that.