Hi Jessicamae. I would encourage you to learn more about AVRT. It's about more than just swearing off and declaring yourself cured. It's about mastering your mind and not allowing your thoughts or Addictive Voice to become a reality. I consider myself recovered and I am certain I will never take another drink. Why? Because I say so. I also don't negotiate about my sobriety. Period. If you can't put a stop to it and take your control back then who can? AVRT is a learned skill for taking back your control. Read around on here and ask questions, there are lots of really great threads about the technique and we all like to talk about it and help others who are interested.